numb

I wish I were a better person.

Baby Jimmy sleeping on the chair - there's no cat like you, baby :'(

My fat cat Jimmy died days ago.

Everybody blames themselves. I blame myself.

I could have changed something.

Teared. The whole weekends. And now. Sometimes after my solat, sometimes in the shower, sometimes before bed.

"Dah ajal. Kalau Tuhan memang nak ambil, kena lah pulangkan."

Dear God, I am not ready for this.

I am not asking for sympathy. I know some people don't appreciate pets or cats but lately, I am really sensitive about almost everything.

Dear God, I am not ready for this.

I wish I were a better person.

True story.

footnote: Eventually, everything that lives, die.